karlakolumna

So.
I read this... And I'm not entirely sure if I regret that or not.

Because, tbh, it left me feeling a bit sick. Or, you know, a lot.

Then again, it was really well written - regarding characterisation and getting the psychological part just right - and really good in itself. There isn't any doubt that Peter is sick. No. SICK. Like, even sicker and more sadistic and sociopathic than in the TV series itself. (And I've watched the season 4 finale, in which he "turns bad again", turns against his nephew and "his pack" once more, shows that he's still the power hungry, manipulative murderer when trying to kill Scott to become The Alpha once more..) So yeah, here he's even more unhinged, to say the least. (I think I mentioned this before, but it really, really needs repeating.)

And I really dind't expect this fic to be that good whilst telling a deeply twisted story about Stockholm Syndrome that creeped me the hell out. Good meaning the characterisation is top notch, like I literally could understand why Stiles would even think of himself as being "happy" sometimes, in between all the horror that is Peter. Could empathise with him blaming himself rather than Peter for being punished and raped (thinking he even deserves the punishments in a way) and being grateful for little things like seemingly nice gestures or the reassurance of human contact. Even though he's well aware of being manipulated, knows that he shows clear signs of Stockholm Syndrome, he can't help but feel this way, but tries battling it and tries not to lose himself all the same.

The ending is quite fitting and anything resembling a happy end would have destroyed the whole plot and sentiment. (Although I'm quite sure that E.L. James would have happily turned this "relationship" into true love and romance by the end of the book.. O.o Just saying.)

Is this fic dark, twisted, disturbing?
Hell yes.

Will I read it a second time?
..Hell no.

Am I glad that I read it?
..I don't really know..

But. I still recommend it to people who want to try something darker, or enjoy dark stories in general. It's a "refreshing" break from sterek and not at all bad.

3.5 stars rounded up, because I sure as hell won't forget this one (as I seem to do with so many others).